A few months ago I was sharing with a group of ladies a conversation I had with God. It was how God continued to put something on my heart that made me uncomfortable, so I continually told God I wasn’t the one for the job and tried to ignore the feeling down deep inside. I explained how God continued to put this situation on my heart and placed certain people and circumstances in front of me. God just wouldn’t leave it alone. He was determined I take care of something, even though I had absolutely no desire to be involved. Then I told them how amazing God was when I finally gave in to His Will. He calmed my heart, gave me the words to speak and created the situation for me to do it. When I finished telling my story, one of the ladies in the group commented that I always argue with God. At the time I laughed and agreed.
Over the next few months, what was said, “You always argue with God” ran over and over in my head. I could clearly see that I did indeed argue with God whenever He put something in front of me. At first I didn’t think there was anything wrong with that. I felt it was just how I processed things. Then, one day, when one of my kids wouldn’t stop arguing with me about something I wanted them to do and they didn’t, I realized how frustrating it must be for God every time I argued with Him.
I began praying, asking God to forgive me for being so disobedient. I recalled the story of Mary and how she reacted when an angel told her she would carry the Son of God. She asked a question, how it was possible, and then accepted the answer and His plan for her.
In the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent from God to a city of Galilee named Nazareth, to a virgin betrothed to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. And the virgin’s name was Mary. And he came to her and said, “Greetings, O favored one, the Lord is with you!” But she was greatly troubled at the saying and tried to discern what sort of greeting this might be. And the angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. And behold, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you shall call his name Jesus. He will be great and will be called the son of the Most High. And the Lord God will give to him the throne of his father David, and he will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of his kingdom there will be no end.”
And Mary said to the angel, “how will this be, since I am a virgin?”
And the angel answered her, “ The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be called holy-the Son of God. And behold, your relative Elizabeth in her old age has also conceived a son, and this is the sixth month with her who was called barren. For nothing will be impossible with God.” And Mary said, “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord; let it be to me according to your word.” And the angel departed from her. ~ Luke 1:26-38
I wish I could be more like Mary, and simply accept what God brings before me. Why do I always feel the need to argue? There must be a better way to process Gods plan than arguing and ignoring Him, as if I knew what was better.
Honestly, I drive myself, and I’m sure all those around me, crazy! I pray for God to be the center of my life. I pray for God to reveal His will for me in mighty and bold ways, holding nothing back. I pray for God to stretch me and grow me as He sees fit. If you recall, this time last year, I told God to ‘bring it!’ Then when He brought it, what did I do? I argued with Him about it. Then my prayers were ‘are You sure?’ or ‘if You are sure, then please show me, again’. How pathetic! Thankfully God treats us with unending love and grace and has immeasurable patience with us. I now wake up each morning and pray that I remember God knows where I’m going, what I will come up against and how to get me through it.
A few months ago, during a BSF lecture, the teaching leader said ‘Good or bad, everything is filtered through the hands of God’. Hearing it brought a calmness about me. It’s comforting. It’s also important to remember that God does know about everything going on in the world. Nothing is to evil/good, small/large or irrelevant for God to know about. We must trust He does know, even if we don’t understand, and believe He will guide us through it. God only wants to help, not hurt.
When you trust and follow God obediently, without arguing, amazing things happen. I hope to have more stories about amazing things God does and less stupid things I do.
My prayer for us today ~ Father God, thank you for patiently loving us. Please forgive us for not trusting your provisions by hesitating to act when You call us into action. I pray to step out in faith without hesitation, Amen
Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promises to her!” ~ Luke 1:45