Last weekend I attended a workshop at Covenant Community Church in Vacaville, sponsored by their MOMSnext program. I had the privilege of hearing Gayle Belanger speak. She shared her book, The Inward Journey to Healing and Wholeness.
I was hoping the day was going to be filled with listening, taking notes and lots of fellowship. That’s not quite how the day went. After she finished telling us a little about herself she started explaining what she was going to talk about and how WE would all go through it together. I’m guessing we all had the same shocked expression on our face because she said “This is a workshop, so we will all be working”. What?! I needed to participate? Ok, time to click my brain on and pay attention.
The first half of the workshop Gayle taught us how to go into a deep meditation with Jesus. It’s to help us have a more intimate relationship with Him. She suggested we meditate with Jesus twice a day for 20 minutes each time. Gayle explained how this would help us win the spiritual battle going on within our minds. If you remember last week’s post, Digging In The Trash, you know I can use all the help with my mind I can get.
I’m standing at the top of a staircase holding hands with Jesus. I focus on the staircase in front on me. I slowly breathe in and exhale. With each step I take I continually call out to Jesus. As I reach the bottom of the staircase I see gates ahead that are opening. As I pass through them I am thanking Jesus for all He has done for me. “Thank you Jesus for giving me the gift of eternal life”. I approach a door as I am praising Jesus. “You are the Son of God, You are my Lord and Savior”. I stop at the door and knock. The door opens, I walk through closing it behind me. I am now in a “secret place” with Jesus. We are sitting on the floor facing each other in front of a communion table. I begin expressing my love for Him and sharing the truths I know from the Bible.
At times, while I was going through this, I did have a hard time visualizing it. I kept pushing through calling out to Jesus. Once I approached the communion table with Jesus thinking about how much I loved Him, a warm feeling came over me and I pink cloud filled the room. I felt safe there with Jesus. Gayle then told us to open our eyes so we could share our experiences. I didn’t want to. I wanted to stay in the warmth of Jesus. After opening my eyes I thought I couldn’t wait to do this twice every day. It was amazing feeling the presence of Jesus and being able to communicate with Him as if we were actually sitting face to face. So beautiful!
As much as I loved this experience you would think I would easily take the time to meditate with Jesus twice every day. I must confess though, I haven’t. I haven’t even been spending my regular daily morning quiet time with Him. I do pray, talk to God, throughout my day, but it’s not the same as spending time alone with Jesus. I’m in the midst of end of school year crazy’s. I’ve let my task’s of the day over take my time with Jesus.
Each morning I jump, well not jump, out of bed and pray while getting ready for the day. Instead of going to the couch to have my quiet time, I start taking on the tasks of the day. Why? Because, it’s the end of the school year! Really, I’m rolling out of bed at the last possible second. Then as I start to move I realize what little time I have and how much I need to accomplish.
I want to take my mornings back and MAKE myself get up on time. As Gayle said regarding many things she spoke about “It’s simple, but it’s not easy”. I know my days go much smother when I start them off with Jesus. But each morning as I lay there in bed I tell myself “You’ve got this. It’s the same thing as every day. No big deal. Take a few extra minutes to rest. You’ll need it to get through this day ahead.” I convince myself that sleep, or a few extra minutes of rest, is what I need and skip meeting with Jesus. I need to remember Jesus will fill me with all I need to get through the day ahead.
I’d appreciate your prayers. Prayers that I wake up, each day, excited to start my day off in the presence of Jesus. Prayers that I will take this wonderful knowledge I have learned from Gayle and put it to use so I may experience Jesus on a more intimate level.
My prayers for us today ~ Father God, I thank you for wanting to have a deep intimate relationship with us through your Son, Jesus. I pray we spend time daily, quietly in your presence, so you can reveal yourself to us, Amen
* If you would like to contact Gayle about her book or her workshops, please send me a message and I will give you her contact information.