This has been a very emotional week for me. One minute I’m celebrating how God has enabled me to serve, and then the next minute I’m crying because this chapter of serving is over. Yes, I’m a crier and always need tissue on hand, but usually fail to have it.
A year ago God called me to be a BSF leader at the end of my first year participating. To be completely honest, I was excited to see what God would do with me, through me and for me as a BSF leader. I was also terrified. Terrified I would fail God and not meet the expectations of others around me.
As I sat with my group for the first time back in September, I found myself feeling unprepared to teach this wonderful group of ladies. During my freak-out moment I told God (quietly in my head) He had made a mistake. I told him I didn’t know enough. To calm me down and help me focus on the ladies in front of me, God whispered “Shhhhhh. Rebecca. I will teach, you will lead. Now pay attention.” Or something like that.
The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do it. ~ 1 Thessalonians 5:24
I had forgotten that God promises to enable us for all He calls us to. God knows me better than I know myself. He knows what I am capable of. All He needs from me is a willing heart to follow His lead. From the moment God calmed me during that first day as a BSF leader I have listened to my ladies and guided them through the lessons while relying on God’s prompting. This has been an amazing year full of growth and blessings. I’m sad it’s now over. This time is truly bittersweet.
Today was my last day as a Group Leader with this particular group of ladies. Over the course of the last 9 months I have grown to love each of them. I have learned a lot from each of them. They each shared their trials and triumphant moments with me. We prayed together and for each other. We studied God’s Word and grew closer to God, together. Each of the beautiful ladies in this group helped me see and appreciate life in a new and magnificent way.
The extra bonus to being a BSF leader is the remarkable women that lead alongside me. They each have such a heart for God. They help me remember, every week, that we don’t do this alone. God is there for us and will guide us through it. We are there to encourage one another. We share our struggles with being a leader and life. We also praise God together as He answers our prayers and reveals Himself to us. We study the Word of God together and share what we have learned.
I am incredibly thankful for BSF (Bible Study Fellowship). If it wasn’t for this program I probably never would have meet all of these warm hearted women. They have each helped me be a better me. I will miss each of them over the next few months. I believe God will give me another amazing group of women in the fall and we too will grow together as we study God’s Word. I’m looking forward to the next chapter of this journey.
My prayer for us today ~ Lord, thank you for the people you place in our lives that draw us closer to You. I pray we show our gratitude and thankful heart to encourage those who help us in our time of need, Amen
I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being,so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord’s holy people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God.
Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us,to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen. ~ Ephesians 3:16-21