When it rains it certainly can pour. I’m not talking about the weather. I have been under attack, spiritually. The past few weeks I feel like I have been on an emotional roller coaster. At the end of each day I am exhausted and feel like I have nothing left to give. Thankfully this happens at the end of the day, not somewhere in the middle, and I have the night to sleep it off and the morning is a brand new day.
The most difficult thing recently is being the encouragement my husband needs me to be for him. As I’ve mentioned in an earlier post, he has been experiencing some ongoing health issues. My husband has been under spiritual attack through this as well. My first reaction when my husband starts talking about his circumstances in a negative way it to yell at him to get a grip and get over himself. I want to tell him he needs to cry out to God and listen for His direction.
Then in His gentle whisper, God reminds me, I am his wife, his helper. I am to help him. That’s when I cry out to God. I ask God for the strength to face Roberts’s demons with him. The words to speak to Robert, as well as prepare his heart to receive them. Words that will remind Robert of the love grace and compassion God has for him. Remind him of the many blessings he has received from God.
At times I feel like I have too much on my plate. Like I’m trying to take care of too many things. Maybe I need to walk away from everything and wait for a better time. Dealing with Robert and his medical stuff is so emotionally draining, how am I supposed to get anything else done?
Then in His gentle whisper, God reminds me He is there for me. He has it all taken care of and planned. All I must do is look to Him so I will know which way to go. Seek Him through prayer and His word and He will fill me with all I need to get through the day and accomplish all He wishes for me to do.
This week I’ve been asking God what the point of Lent was. I understand what it is and why we are to do it, but how is it going to help me and what I’m going through? I think it would make things so much easier for me if I just didn’t participate this year. Only drinking water and no sweets, what was I thinking?! No coffee or extra sugar?! How will I make it through until Easter?! Seriously, what is the point?
Even my son knows how I get without coffee and sweets. When he realized it was Lent and what I was giving up he said “Lord help us!”
While I was looking for scripture to go with this post, something about light in the morning. I found Isaiah 58:8, ‘Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard.’ I thought it sounded wonderful but wanted to understand what this phrase was talking about, so I pulled up all of Isaiah 58 and read it. It’s titled ‘True Fasting’.
“Shout it aloud, do not hold back. Raise your voice like a trumpet. Declare to my people their rebellion and to the descendants of Jacob their sins. For day after day they seek me out; they seem eager to know my ways, as if they were a nation that does what is right and has not forsaken the commands of its God. They ask me for just decisions and seem eager for God to come near them. ‘Why have we fasted,’ they say, ‘and you have not seen it? Why have we humbled ourselves, and you have not noticed?’
“Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please and exploit all your workers. Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife, and in striking each other with wicked fists. You cannot fast as you do today and expect your voice to be heard on high. Is this the kind of fast I have chosen, only a day for people to humble themselves? Is it only for bowing one’s head like a reed and for lying in sackcloth and ashes? Is that what you call a fast, a day acceptable to the Lord?
“Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke? Is it not to share your food with the hungry and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter— when you see the naked, to clothe them, and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood? Then your light will break forth like the dawn, and your healing will quickly appear; then your righteousness will go before you, and the glory of the Lord will be your rear guard. Then you will call, and the Lord will answer; you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.
“If you do away with the yoke of oppression, with the pointing finger and malicious talk,and if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday. The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail. Your people will rebuild the ancient ruins and will raise up the age-old foundations; you will be called Repairer of Broken Walls, Restorer of Streets with Dwellings.
“If you keep your feet from breaking the Sabbath and from doing as you please on my holy day, if you call the Sabbath a delight and the Lord’s holy day honorable, and if you honor it by not going your own way and not doing as you please or speaking idle words, then you will find your joy in the Lord, and I will cause you to ride in triumph on the heights of the land and to feast on the inheritance of your father Jacob.” For the mouth of the Lord has spoken. ~ Isaiah 58
God spoke to me as I read it. My mouth hit the floor and tears filled my eyes. This time of fasting is to draw me closer to Him, not push me away or make my life more difficult or exhausting. I will make it through each day as it comes focusing on the light at the end. Easter, the day we celebrate the resurrection of our Savior, Jesus Christ. I love how when we cry out to God, He points us to what we need right when we need it.
My prayer for us today ~ Lord, thank you for your gentle whisper and your Word which guides us through each day. I pray we each spend more time daily, quietly listening, so we may hear your gentle whisper, Amen.