Have you ever stopped to look around and wonder how in the world you ended up doing what you were doing? Well, I’ve been doing that a lot over the past few years. Not in a bad way, a good way. Actually, in more of an exciting scary kind of way.
A few years ago the Pastor at the church we attend, Covenant Community Church, did a sermon on the Lord’s Prayer. He walked us through each line of the prayer so we would understand what we were praying, saying to God, each time we said it. The line “Your will be done” hit me hard. I realized I was asking God for His will to be done in my life, but did I mean it? How would I know if I was doing God’s will or my will?
I started praying for God to show me His will for my life, give me the desire to do His will and to see the opportunities when they came. Since doing this my world has changed, dramatically. I have discovered that God’s will for me is way outside of my comfort zone.
God usually gives me the desire, a heads up, to do something before the opportunity comes up. Probably because I always bring up the following points with God why He’s nuts to think I could do such a thing. As I’m sure you can imagine, this creates some interesting conversations with God.
- I’m not important/popular enough
- I’m not smart enough
- I don’t have enough experience
- I’m to weird/spazy
- I’m to busy
- No one wants ME to do it
Once I get through all of the above points and God is still pointing me in His direction and the opportunity comes about, I’m usually ready to move forward with His will. Sometimes this takes longer than others, depending on what God is putting in front of me.
Recently, I was telling a friend about my experience being a BSF Group Leader (Bible Study Fellowship). I was trying to express how much I enjoyed it and especially how I was blessed by the ladies in my leaders group and the ladies in the group I facilitated. The more I talked the more she seemed confused and displeased. By her comments I got the impression she thought it was a group with too many rules and no place for God. I began to get frustrated but determined to help her understand that was not the case. After a quick silent prayer I told her about the compliments I had received since becoming a BSF leader. She now had a confused look on her face and said “Rebecca, you are one of the spaziest people I know.” I smiled, looked at her and said “I know”. After a few moments she said “It’s the Holy Spirit”. Yes indeed, it was the Holy Spirit! I am a complete spaz just as my friend had said.
Before I was asked to be a BSF leader God put the idea in my head. I of course went through the above listed discussion points with God and then dismissed the idea. A few weeks later I was asked to consider, pray about, being a BSF leader. I knew then this was Gods will for me. Over the summer as I continued to pray about it I told God I had no idea why He picked me for this or how I would accomplish the task. I also told Him I completely trusted He knew what was needed to be a BSF leader and wouldn’t let me mess anyone up. I believed with all my heart God would give me all I needed each and every time to accomplish the task He had put before me. I have to admit, it is a lot of work, but God provides the time, the understanding family and blesses me for being willing to do His work.
With each new desire God puts on my heart I know I do not have what it takes to do it on my own. I also know God will work with me and through me, with the Holy Spirit, to accomplish everything He desires of me.
When you pray, do you give God a list of things you wish He would do? Or do you ask God to show you what He would like you to do and how to do it? Ask God to fill your heart with the desires He has for you. I promise you will find yourself accomplishing some wonderful things if you do.
My prayer for us today ~ Lord, thank you for the example of Jesus, the Holy Spirit which guides us and your never ending love. I pray we see the opportunities to do Your will and have the courage to act on them, Amen